Front Seat

I. Am. Gettin. A. Couch. Dagnabbit.

So it has been four months - it's time to act again. Jeez, there was a time when I was doing like, at least two shows at a time ALL the time. What happened? I mean, I'm pleased to have a big girl job and big girl health insurance and a big girl apartment, but I just wanna act, really. Big drawn out sigh. It has become less and less bizarre to not have theatre at the forefront of my life, however, it hasn't really felt much like my life. Not to be a big cornball, but I have only had one place where I felt like I belonged - and that would be in a theatre. Or to clarify, any place where I had opportunities to perform, to create. Once you cut yourself off from that, there is a feeling of being aimless, useless. Worse than that, the feeling of just floating becomes almost seductive. It's terribly easy. And terribly terrible. I know it's not just me... the pressure's on to quit "just killing time", right? I'm coming back around though; there is a feeling of waking up - of remembering that life is more valuable than things, security, and whatnot. I had a conversation tonight with a friend about how exciting it used to be to wake up every morning when we were children. Because you had a whole day of doing things you actually wanted to do to look forward to. Insane, right? Who here lately has actually woken up at the crack of dawn, impatient for the day to start? I have, but only very recently. Here's to making every day like that! (raises a Honey Moon)
Cheers.

Real Love - Adam Sandler
http://www.imeem.com/artists/adam_sandler/music/-8ZxAjCN/adam-sandler-real-love/

SPEW

I is drunk offa too much mexican food and coca cola. Oh my tummy.
Painting. But more paint on self than on canvas. Hmmm.
Adding to new music; damn you itunes! I tried to avoid you like the plague. How will I ever pay my rent??
But if you're looking for some stuff to listen to, lemme help ya out:

http://www.imeem.com/artists/bowerbirds/music/kRxPr3wl/bowerbirds-northern-lights/

http://www.imeem.com/artists/fleet_foxes/music/Gondnr3B/fleet-foxes-white-winter-hymnal/

http://www.imeem.com/blitzentrapper/music/IQx_oVMc/blitzen-trapper-wild-mountain-nation/

http://www.imeem.com/artists/band_of_horses/music/THff_6BY/band-of-horses-no-ones-gonna-love-you-album/

http://www.imeem.com/people/lHRcrFH/music/VDVSnmpH/breathe-owl-breathe-ghost-in-the-morning-moon/

http://www.imeem.com/people/8DOzgNU/music/GKpivYx8/edward-sharpe-the-magnetic-zeros-home/

http://www.imeem.com/groups/HXi-th-h/music/YO5ITXK8/state-bird-where-the-water-met-the-land/

That should cover us for awhile; all kind of mystical, romantic, folksy, and some are smiling inducing upbeat tunes. That's the way the wind seems to be blowing these days. I likes. I likes a lot.

I have two avocados. How does one make guacamole?

Lunch Break

truffle oil= yum
In case you didn't know. I'm a pretty happy girl these days, for a multitude of reasons. Truffle oil is just one of them. Secret Strawberry fizzes are another. I've been singing a lot in my apartment and I'm not sure if my neighbors can hear me- if they can, they are getting one hell of a show.
I went through my life and did some weeding and it has made me a lot more at peace.
having someone say I love you= yum
saying it back= double yum

I bought new sheets for the bed. I am still fantasizing about couches. I need to save up money for a vehicle. I have lots of traveling ahead of me.

I realize I'm probably annoyingly cheerful and giddy these days, so my apologizes go out, but also my wish that those who don't like it can suck it. I keep thinking about the movie Up. I just want to go back and see it again and again. I'll be sitting at work, thinking about it and then get choked up. This is probably inappropriate work behavior, as is constant e mailing, but it makes the days flow along better.
big fucking fat cats= yum
puppy fever= yum
records and new reading material= yum
upcoming weddings= yum

Holy moly, upcoming weddings- I really need to get my act together. What kind of MOH am I??? October is freakishly close!

Humming....

Bewitched - Ella Fitzgerald