and bewildered? Yeahhh.... Once again, I find I've entered into a period of insomnia. I read, I lay in silence, I turn on the tv.... nothing. My brain just keeps going and fixating on things I will never figure out or be able to put to rest. Here it is, almost 6am and I'm still awake! How do people manage to put their thoughts to rest?
Do you know what I think face book and myspace and all these networking forums need? They need an app that translates cryptic statuses and what not. Although I'm totally guilty of posting such bullshit myself, it usually doesn't run so deep - mostly its just movie references or Simpsons quotes. It is exhausting trying to figure that mess out. And why? Its just one of the many things that keep me up at night, and for no good reason.
In one attempt to lull myself to sleep, I put on an old home movie and was horrified to hear my strong southern accent (which my mother soon knocked out of me) at age eight. I was giving my parents a tour of the zoo.
"Hay, it's me ag'in. Jissica Clarrrk, you knoaw? These ahre the se-yals. And they eat a loht. Lahke fi-yish? And squad? I mean... I mean Squ-yid". Oy. That would keep anyone up.