Big Booty

Moving moving moving.
Pinocchio opens next Tuesday.
I just started rehearsals for a new show, Talk Radio.
An apartment of my own is within my reach...
after a short stay with my cray cray buddy Daniel.
I have bruises all up and down my legs from hanging off the set and rolling around the stage.
If you want to see me in pink unitard and cheerleader outfit screeching like a howler monkey, swing by Children's Theater.
Smell you later.

Gone with the wind

I release! I release all that shit! And I think everything's starting to come up Jessica. This has turned out to be the best decision I've made in years. The past week has provided me with not one, not two, not even three, but FIVE exciting new opportunities to turn it around. I'm not sure what has happened to put a big old pot of luck in my court, but I just won't even question it. I think it is just an answer to a prayer. Thanks, Birmingham. And thanks you guys who've stood beside me all the way. I send mucho good karma vibes right back atcha.
Let's just hope things continue to keep falling into place!

Greatness

I am packed and ready to hit the road in 4 and half hours. It seems hard to believe that after almost a year of thinking about coming back to my hometown I am actually doing it. I have to say, the circumstances under which I am returning are completely different than I imagined - but sometimes different is good. If things always went the way we expected they would, then nothing would really be worth doing, huh? I am so grateful that Meredith is opening up her home to me, but I hope that I will be able to find my own place quickly. And car too! All I need is some money magic... Ah, I can't get started on the list of things I think I need to get by, or I'll just freak myself out. As my friend Jackie has always told me, I just need to follow my heart. And as Homer Simpson once declared after Lisa offered up the belief that in every crisis lies opportunity, "Crisitunity!"
I'm coming back to Birmingham with all my broken pieces in hopes of finding my core and then begin rebuilding.
And to be a little pretentious, as Shakespeare says you must be "as great in act as you have been in thought". Well I've got tons of thoughts. Tons.


March
And I drove past the wetlands
all frozen over,
with waves of brown grass stretching their arms upward
as though to say,
" Try and hold me down with your cold hands
and I'll show you the true force of nature!"

Action Jackson

Packing, packing, packing. Oy! This marks the 6th time I have picked up my life and moved it across the country. How do I feel about moving back to my hometown? Fucking fantastic. I look forward to bright new beginnings and a whole new Jessica.
Let me rephrase that... an even Better Jessica. Because I discovered something wonderful today and please excuse me if this comes off as egotistical : I am awesome. No, seriously. I have fallen flat on my face more times than I can count and every time, every single time, I have picked myself back up. That's amazing. Have I accomplished my goals, or reached my dreams, or even gotten a lot of what I wanted? Hell, no- and the fact that I still take risks and move forward and stay true to myself is damn impressive. I've tried compromising and I've tried being apathetic, and I CANNOT do it. My desire to make my life worth living always pokes me in the side and says, "Girl! Limbo is not for you! You are a giving, caring human being and you deserve to go after what you want!"
I'm not changing for anyone. I've heard about these so called "rules" that we are all supposed to play by, and I'm sorry, but that is bullshit! No Joe Schmoe is going to live their life the way Jessica Clark lives it, and I am certainly not going to live by Joe Schmoe's rules. I spend a lot of time giving and giving and giving and always putting myself second. Nuts to that. I come first and I play by my own rules. I live to love and care for others and now I'm going to make sure that I include myself in that group of people. I tip my hat to the friends who've earned my love through years of consistency. Those are the people value my worth. You guys are the shit!
With this new start, I am making a promise that I am not going to squander my gifts and that I will always stay true to myself. And that I won't be ashamed of "failures"... they're only evidence that I had the guts to try. And at the end of the day, what is the measure of a person - their successes or the amount of effort they put forth? Hmm?? Can I get an Amen?
I'm feeling positive, very positive and sure of myself. Do what you will, life. I'll be fine.